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Baby Olivia's Story
I can't believe it has taken me almost a year to word her story correctly and make it sound the way I wanted it to.I have wrote it how I thought it sounded best.And then today when writing it to a friend of mine to put on her page I had to post it on here in bulletin for everyone else to read it because it's now worded differently.I am not sure what else to say other then I still am not all the way content with it.But there are no words that could ever explain how I feel about Olivia.And how much I love her...But thanks for reading the story below...(hugs)
It all started in Feb 2007 I found out that there was something wrong with Olivia threw Ultra sound.I was 14 weeks pregnant with her.And little did I know I was going to go threw a seres of test and being poked and prodded... At the first ultra sound they said that it looked as though something wad wrong with her head.And what shocked me was the fact that I was just seen by the same tech that did the ultra sound not even two weeks before that and she said everything was just fine. So you can tell I was a little crushed and mad at the same time that they had missed that two weeks prior to this ultra sound.Well anyways I then went to seek help from a high risk doctor.And he was just amazing...
And he was more compassionate then any doctor I had ever gone threw.But anyways he gave me the choice to continue the pregnancy or to terminate the pregnancy.I was not going to give up on the pregnancy.
I carried her despite losing her. And it was not an easy task. I was very sad threw the whole pregnancy.I remember thinking what am I going to do???And I thought to myself am I being fare to Olivia to make her suffer. Or is she hurting or is she ok? Is this pregnancy really bad?Are the doctors really wrong? And I had to have an ultra sound done every two weeks and check up every week just to see how things were going.And I had an amnio done.And them things hurt.The needle goes all the way in.And I thought I was going to pass out when they sucked some of the fluid out to get a proper reading as to what was really going on.Well only they was not able to tell much because the amount of blood in the fluid.But with all the ultra sounds her kidneys were getting bigger and starting to fail.And there was not much fluid left around her. So the high risk doctor then told me that he wanted me to seek medical advice from a State hospital that only deals with Pregnant women.And I drove an hour and half away to find out from another high risk doctor that my daughter did indeed have Meckel Gruber Syndrome.And that there was nothing else to be done.And I still did not want to believe them..I cried and I ached and thought this can't be true...This is just not fare.And I made the choice to continue the pregnancy to give Olivia the best chance if indeed there was nothing wrong with her and if by the grace of God they was wrong...
Well needless to say they was not wrong.And things took a turn for the worse in April and I was swollen and uncomfortable as I could be.And my protein was up to 3000 and it should never be over 300 in a normal case.And my sugars were was up in the 300's range and my iron was low.And BP was very high...
So they scheduled a c-section for the 26th after failed attempts to induce me and allergic reactions to patpocian...So on the 26th at 6:00pm I was wheeled into to the OR to have a c-section done.And just the few minutes I was in the room waiting for them to cut me were the longest minutes of my life.I kept thinking to myself am I really able to handle this am I really able to take this on.Will I break when she dies.Will she be alive when she is born.And if so will she suffer.And then at 6:18pm my little princess entered the world very quietly and passed away 31 minutes after her birth.And that will stay with me for the rest of my life.But the thing that's most important to me is that I never gave up I gave Olivia fighting chance even when I had more then three doctors telling me that she was not going to make it.I fought for her life.She was so perfect to me.I just simply do not understand anything at all... I wish that I could bring her back.But instead I am expected to live the rest of my life knowing that she'll never be here.I never got to hear her cry or see her eyes.She never opened them.
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